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Books written for my son

Awakening

Within the pages of these books, a profound journey awaits, a passage of wisdom and contemplation that I offer to you, my cherished son. With each word carefully penned, I hope to gift you insights that will illuminate the path of your youth, guiding you towards a deeper comprehension of the world and a life steeped in tranquility.

As you embrace the years ahead, may these written musings become your companions, encouraging you to reflect on the intricacies of existence. Drawing inspiration from the philosopher Alan Watts, whose wisdom has been a guiding star in my own journey, these pages are a testament to the profound impact of philosophy on shaping a life of purpose and understanding.

Amidst life's whirlwind, may these thoughts be a sanctuary, a reservoir of perspective to turn to during moments of uncertainty. May they instill within you the power of empathy, the significance of self-discovery, and the art of navigating life's twists with grace.

Through these words, I aspire to offer you a tapestry of ideas that can enrich your days, fostering a spirit of curiosity and contemplation. Just as Watts' teachings have illuminated my path, may these insights serve as lanterns on your voyage towards a life imbued with harmony, wisdom, and an abiding love for the world's mysteries.


We chated ourselves

The existence the physical universe is basically playful. There is no necessity for it whatsoever… It isn't going anywhere that is to say it doesn't have some destination that it ought to arrive at. But but it is best understood by analogy with music, because music as an art form is essentially playful . We say you play the piano you don't work the piano. Why? music differs from say travel. When you travel you are trying to get somewhere. In music though one doesn't make the end of a composition the point of the composition, if that was so the best conductors would be those who played fastest and there will be composers who wrote only finales.

People go to concert just hear one crashing chord because that's the end. Say when dancing you don't aim at a particular spot in the room that's where you should arrive. The whole point of the dancing is the dance. But we don't see that as something brought by our education into our everyday conduct. We've got a system of schooling which gives a completely different impression. It's all graded and what we do is we put the child into the corridor of this grading system with a kind of come on kitty kitty kitty and they are you go to kindergarten you know and that's a great thing, because when you finish that you'll get into first grade and then come on first grade leads the second grade and so on and then you get out of grade school you've got high school and it's revving up the thing is coming then you're going to go to college then you get into graduate school and when you're through with graduate school, you go out to join the world. Then you get into some racket where you're selling insurance and they've got that quota to make and you're going to make that and all the time the thing is coming it's coming it's coming that great thing the success you're working for.. then when you wake up one day about years old you say my god I've arrived. I'm there and you don't feel very different from what you always felt.

Look at the people who live to retire and put those savings away and then when they they don't have any energy left they're more or less impotent and they go and rotten and old peoples senior citizens community because we've simply treated ourselves the whole way down the line. We thought of life by analogy with a journey with a pilgrimage which had a serious purpose at the end the thing was to get to that end success or whatever it is…. or maybe heaven after your death

But we missed the point the whole way along. It was a musical thing and you was first sing or dance while the musical being played…